Probably hyperbole. Yeah...it is. But it was great. Go see it.
That's not why I'm posting, though. It's about the void. (whoo, dude, bummer). Been on a big downer, for a long, long time. The void, black dog, the pit...whatever you call it, it's an arsehole.
It has nothing to do with anything. It's not life, or sadness, or stress, or even the darkness beyond and its vast maw snapping at your heels...it's
I think that's what it is. When I'm low, it's not that I hate, or that I'm sad. It's that everything is utterly without reason or meaning. Everything. Why do I do the washing, or the school run, or write? Everything is grind...and for what?
Nihilism beckons. There is no purpose, no meaning - only the void. Sweet oblivion, where the answers lay. Or, there are no answers, because nothing matters.
Then why do those of us who see the void keep going? It is there. It's undeniable - a sideways blackness that waits at the edges of our vision.
Why fight it?
I don't know. Me, it's because of that fleeting moment of joy that alleviates the druggery which sometimes crushes and that druggery is so God-damned heavy. I keep on because of that pure moment of fascination at the endless propensity for creation which humanity possesses. Things I enjoy make me remember why we exist. Deadpool made me laugh tonight, and that's enough for now.
Love you x
Published Novel and Novella Excerpts
- The Dead Boy
- Unit 731
- Left to Darkness
- Masters of Blood and Bone
- A Stranger's Grave
- Damned to Cold Fire
- Flesh and Coin
- The Walls of Madness
- The Love of the Dead
- A Home by the Sea
- The Noose and Gibbet
- A Scarecrow to Watch over Her
- Death by a Mother's Hand
- Dark Words
- Dead in the Trunk
- Angels in Black and White
- Spiggot, Too
- The Gold Ring
- Days of Christmas
- Ghost Voices
- The Outlaw King
- The Thief King
- The Queen of Thieves
- Rythe Awakes
- Tides of Rythe
- Rythe Falls
- Beneath Rythe
- The Line of Kings Boxed Set Edition
- The Rythe Quadrilogy Boxed Set Edition
- The Warrior Soul
- RED LINE HORROR DOUBLES
Wednesday, 10 February 2016
Sunday, 7 February 2016
This month's free/cheap promotions from me. There are all set to run the week of February 20th. Most will run 7 days, though The Outlaw King will be five days (freebies can only run five days.) The following titles will be on offer:
The Dead Boy/Vigil Double Bill: Horror/Apocalyptic Fiction
Death by a Mother's Hand/A Scarecrow to Watch over Her Double Bill: Horror
The Tides of Rythe: Fantasy
The Outlaw King (FREE): Fantasy
Dark Words: Horror
That's it for this blog. I'll try to remember to share again a few times before February 20th in case you miss this post.
Otherwise I think I'm going to keep quiet for a while. Trying to find my mojo to get a novel done. Having to sneak up on it.
Tuesday, 26 January 2016
Out now, direct from DarkFuse, or Amazon ($2.99/£2.10)
I'm not going to put a sample here (there's one in the sample's section) but I am going to post an excerpt from the afterword. This, UNIT 731, a story that features UNIT 731, but mostly, it's a story about family, and overall, it's a story about men. This, then, is the afterword.
This story is inspired by many things. My time in Japan, where I lived for five years. The time between the 24th of May and the 2nd of June when I wrote this was, by and large, the first time I made any use of Japanese since leaving over fifteen years ago. But it's not the main inspiration.
731 isn't, you might notice, a story about Japan. It's not about murder, or war crimes, or, in a strange way, hate, even.
It's a story about men, and about family.
The largest inspiration, I think, was my grandfather. Alfred William Keningale. People called him Bill.
He was a soldier before the start of the war. He didn't fight in the Pacific war, but in Europe, Africa, and the Middle-East.
Granddad wasn't a big man, but he'd seen more than most. In the story, Reggie talks about his brother Harry coming back changed, after World War II. This happened. When granddad came home, no one, not even family, recognised him.
In his seventies, not long before he died, a man threatened his care-giver. Granddad told the man to fuck off, that he was a 'trained killer'.
He was past seventy, and he was a trained killer, alright...but that's not the point. He was a man. Not a saint, or a superhero. Just an ordinary man trying to do right.
This story is about what that means. 731 is a story about men talking and fighting, drinking and swearing and talking tough and dying and loving each other, as family and friends and sometimes, enemies.
But mostly it's about old guys who leave the world a little poorer when they go, and a little richer for having been here at all.
Anyway, that's the afterword. That's what the story is about. I hope you enjoy it.